What failure tastes like..

The definition of failure changes with time and age… I’m 27 year old indian girl.. should mention a jobless Indian girl.. for my family and the society and also myself I am a complete trash.. good for nothing..

It’s been a long time since 3-4 years I’m trying to get a government job. Now my supportive mother also gave up on me and told me many times that I’m good for nothing and nothing is gonna happen in my career. It’s been a high time for her (being a single mother)..

She wants me to get married now that too with an unknown guy who is a clerk in some bank.. according to her i have nothing that I should be proud of and should be thankful that he is ready to accept me.. and she 100s of times mentioned that my beauty means nothing to people because people don’t prefer beauty over brain.. they want girl with good earnings..

You know that is the failure for me where my only family, my mother considers me a worthless piece of shit.. that hits so hard I can’t explain what I’m feeling right now.. my father died when I was a little kid, I don’t have any siblings.. i always thought about my mother my only dream is to give her a good life.. but I’m not able of doing anything..

This is not any Blog just dumbing my thoughts here..